Checking in...

No pics to share. I have been busy / lazy - depending on the hour. No baby to share yet, either. Today is my official due date believe or not. The way I've been spouting off, you'd think I was a month late already. I'm not - it just feels that way. Because of several things - the pumping and herb protocol that started at thirty-seven weeks, a second fetus, a psychic that was right about everything else, the fact that Primo came early and that this is a second baby, my hugeness, etc - I really thought this baby would be here by now. It's all about expectations, I guess. (Wo)man plans, god laughs.

I went to the acupuncturist this week - twice - for electronic stimulation. She also gave me a hefty dose of vile herbs. I have had massage therapists friends pushing on pressure points for two weeks now. "Nesting" has come and gone. But, alas - nothing. Nada. Zilch.

So - now - on my due date, I am starting to feel the anxiety. I am worried about interventions and c-sections and what if something's wrong, and oh my god - I've been eating too many carbs, etc. Stepping outside of myself, I know that plenty of babies come past their due dates. I know that this baby will get here when he and my body are ready. But still...

Regarding no pics - I have been sooooo achy and tired that I haven't been motivated to pull out the camera. I have also been lucky enough to have our wonderful baby-sitter become available during some daytime hours and she's been taking Jr. out on a lot of his daily adventures.

The house is still asleep. I have been up since five. I think I might organize the baby's drawers. Very exciting. Maybe I will take some pics...

In the meantime, please send positive labor vibes!